dragged myself out with my not-so-little kids for some photos of their not-so-lilttleness
before flesh de bébé arrives and to capture a bit of the Fall's beautifully changing light
how is it possible that it will no longer just be these two fighting for my love and attention and the ipad all day long? i've grown to know them so intimately over 5 years, it almost feels like "the new guy" is going to be a bit of an intruder. i know that is luda (as in ludicrous) but i think every mother goes through these thoughts and fears of whether she will be able to love the older children as much as the new baby or vice versa, essentially questioning the scope and seemingly impossible expansion of her love… and patience for that matter!!! time will tell as it always does. as i have gone through editing and posting these photos, my heart feels sad that this chapter is coming to an end. 5.5 years of my life as a mother of two has consumed me entirely. this is what i know. it's been TWO KIDS BOOTCAMP for long enough that it has become the true norm… that said, i realize it is not really an end, but a new beginning, the introduction of an unforgettable character that this novel could not exist without. i know that i will laugh at myself wondering "what was i thinking?!!!" as i quietly swoon in awe over this new little person.
1.5 months to go...